As I went to visit my friend Krystal this morning I was filled with dread.
She’s an “undecided” that tolerates our republican state well.
She also secretly loves it when someone is wrong.
Entering her bonus room I was met with her smirk.
Well, she says, what do you think of your Obama now?
I take in a breath and exhaled deeply.
I don’t want to start crying before I can get it out.
Last night the thought that now has me on the verge of tears had never crossed my mind.
I have to explain it to her. I have to win her over. We need every vote. I exhale. Krystal’s smirking at me. Waiting patiently with her head cocked to the side.
Well Krystal, I say, last night I was tracking twitter during the debates.
Krystal rolls her eyes.
Yes. I twitter Krystal. (Just wait until she finds out I blog. She will call me a queer.)
Everyone I follow was like “WTF”? Bill Maher, Will McEvoy, the Huffington Post, me, we were all tweeting that, in one way or the other.
“Stop taking notes, get him!”
“Why aren’t you mentioning the attack on women’s rights?”
“What about the 47% video?”
” Attack him, he’s lying thru his teeth!”
Really, Krystal says, he was stammering and stumbling even I was amazed.
I know right? I continue. My husband and I were just astounded. Obama didn’t call him on a single flip-flop, on his party’s obstructionism, his flip-flops on abortion rights, health care, we just kept looking at each other. I , of course, was watching my twitter page, checking out Big bird like everyone else, and I began to notice a trend. I looked at my husband and said he’s losing! What is going on? What is he doing?
Everyone was.
So, Krystal says, what was his problem?
Now the tears well up. The lump in throat comes back.
I swallow hard.
Well, I say, at first last night I was saying to my husband he’s just giving him enough rope to hang himself.Then it didn’t happen and we all knew he had somehow managed to lose the debate. Impossible! Then I thought. He’s great about using social media to his advantage. He’s a chess player. He’s going to let the media show his previous statements side by side for everyone to see.Jon Stewart of The Daily show and Stephen Colbert on The Colbert Report are going to have a field day with this! That must be the plan.
Then this morning, while drinking coffee and listening to MSNBC, all the talk was about how he couldn’t present himself this way or that way. Couldn’t be the angry black man, couldn’t be the arrogant man, and so on.
So I say to my husband. “I think he just had everyone telling him to be cautious and he should have just been himself and let the man have it, he’s got to trust himself”.
What my husband said next stayed with me, has haunted me, all morning. As I say this to Krystal the tears begin.
Oh for God’s sake. Get over yourself. Krystal says. What’s he say?
He said “I think he just doesn’t want to be president again. I mean, think about it. I wouldn’t.”
Krystal, I think he may be right , I say as the tears return to my eyes.
What are you talking about? Your so dramatic. God! Krystal sneers.
No, seriously, I go on to explain. He has gone from just a few gray hairs to a full head of gray in less than four years. They’ve attacked his birth, his church, everything. He has witnessed a resurrection of racism in this country that I wouldn’t wish on anyone.
Krystal moans. Yeah, well, is all she can say.
Oh come one, I say as I glared at her. We’ve all seen the emails and the posts on Facebook. The signs with him dressed up like a witch doctor, the monkey jokes, I swear to God Krystal I saw a sign that said “Jesus hates Obama” at the republican convention!
I’m just letting myself cry now. Krystal remains silent.
Shaking my head, I continue, Krystal, it’s is the saddest thing to me and I don’t blame him. I wouldn’t want to do it again either. In the shower this morning I was thinking about all the hateful signs, the racist emails, and I just started praying for God to forgive them for they know not what they do, but then, before I could say amen, I got angry. I looked up, and I actually said to God “but we both know that they do”. and I started to cry.
And Krystal the saddest part is this. Obama really is the best thing for this country right now. We can’t go back. We have to do better. We all know this! We can’t be the kind of country that’s at war all the time, doesn’t care about the sick, or the middle class, says a person doesn’t have to be alive with blood in their veins, we can’t be a country where money rules everything! How can the so-called christians not fight this? Don’t they remember that the bible says it is the love of money that is the root of all evil?
He’s the only one that will even try to stop it and we may just be screwed.
I am now in tears and Krystal is not good with emotion.
I take a deep breath and say “Let’s talk about something else”.
Krystal begins complaining about her teenager. Whew, I’m glad mine are grown.